Iro Iro na koto~

@_@ Two assignments due in one week time. I am so fucking dead.

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Heard about the Cambodia incident on monday during sculpturing lesson. I wasn't aware of it until I asked my classmates about it. Apparantly, one of the student who died was a student of DMD...and Ms.Gail knew him.

We talked about the incident on Wednesday during Art and History class...and Ms.Gail wanted to talk about the topic of 'Blame' ...

And, well, I can see that she's really upset about the death. :( Her voice hitched many times during the discussion...and she managed to control it till the end of the class, where she nearly, NEARLY cried. Her eyes and nose were all red though.

Ms.Gail said that the student wasn't one who left the most impression on her...wasn't a student she's really close with...but, right now, she can't forget about him.

This leads to me wondering for the rest of the week...why do humans only learn to regret and treasure things and people and creatures and animals AFTER they are gone, and there's no means to get them back? Why don't we treasure them when they are still around?

I guess it's a matter of taking things for granted...or perhaps it's regret? Regret that you didn't show more care to the person...regret that you didn't spend more time with him or her...

In this short 19 years of my life, I have yet lost some one whom I am really, REALLY close with...but since I was in around...secondary 1(I think)...everyday, I thought about what I will do IF someone I cared for deeply died. Be it my family member, my friends, my relatives, my nanny...

(TOUCH WOOD)

So yeah...I thought about it, make myself worry and worry, and I couldn't come to a conclusion as to what I will do...simply because I can't IMAGINE that happening...

There's the saying 'Do things everyday as though you are about to die tomorrow.'

...Seriously, it's easier said than done. Don't you agree?

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Probably have to kick the idea of going CF out of my head...cause it's hard to achieve...=_=;; Especially if what I am planning was to go in the day and come back to SG in the evening.....MUZUKASHII SUGI.

In any case, will go to EOY whether friends are going or not...mainly cause of the Kuroshitsuji cosplay~! ^__^ Wanna take photos~ :)

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p.s: Time to start thinking about my future. *sighs*